This is the edge. Right? One step forward, it's down. Or up. And we say over and over how life is a series of undulations, some good, many bad. But always coming in cycles--the peaks and the lows. We say it, but when we step back and look at it, the pattern is still uncanny. So many great things are happening, so many bad have just happened: are coming. So do we step back and ride the waves, let life hit us, standing our ground like tiny pebbles on the beach or do we hit back, ride hard, and take control. And is this really taking control? Or is it the illusion of having control, but actually losing it. How much is acceptable to let happen and how much must we force, or at least strongly encourage.
"Take the first steps--"
"--Let fate deal with it."
What contradictions! If a person dares to say one, another undoubtedly will preach the other. So it goes, that for every piece of advice, there is one more to contradict it. Always. I say always, to you who tell me: never say never, don't say always, could you ever know if always lasts forever? It will now. I've said it. This lasts--
Always.
You tell me don't say: everybody. How could you know everybody? I don't, but I know people. We aren't who we say we are, we don't think like we say we think. Our motives are internal; do we ever really tell the truth? Because there is always another layer, another motivation, another stipulation...another reason to go ahead and do another selfless task, that has everything to do with Me. You want me to know that you don't work this way. But you do. There are no exceptions to these rules. These are rules engrained in us from life's beginning. No: yours, ours, his, hers, mine. No theirs. We don't control the rules, we play within them. They govern us; we don't even know. You don't even know. So maybe you won't admit: always, but you think it too. You won't admit: never, but it bleeds into your mind, every once in a while. You promise you don't hate, or judge: I don't believe it. You think you're a better liar than everybody else...we think we're better liars than you too. I say: never say always, or never, or forever. But I play my games trapped by these rules too. We'll just keep not saying, all the things we really mean.